悔过书

It's the last night in UTP before i leave for internship 

Of course this night is not a good night

After looking at it at 1.53am

I realized on how worse the condition is right now, as I thought on how different it is as compared to how it was shown to me before

Sorry is useless now, as I assumed

No more connection now will happen between us. 

I promise here today. 

No more interaction..

I never expect all of that will actually appear in your mind

If my appearance will make you feel so,

I will leave from your life.

Be yourself and you do not have to pretend on how cheerful or how happy you are for now

I believe that I can't give you what you have been hoping

So i gave up..Gave up on myself...

With all the pain that I have brought

I felt guilty..

Saying out these might appear to be fake or useless for you..

But at least i should say this out..

Even calling you now to explain all these things seem to irrational

But at least you appeared in my life and how you had coloured my life beautifully...

I do appreciate how the 2 years long distance relationship teach me how to love a girl..

Thank you very much

Lastly, This post is dedicated to you..

Tan Chu Yee..Thank you for being there..

I realize the tragedy and trauma happened to you due to my existence

I am praying hard for your happiness in the future..

Hope you will get your true love..